For quite some time, I’ve considered putting a blog on my website. It’s been almost a year since I started telling friends, “I think I’m going to start blogging.”
My hesitation centered around two major fears:
1- People might read your blog.
2- People might not read your blog.
Simple. Contradictory. The real deal. Can any of you other bloggers relate?
I acknowledged that my blog would be available to all who travel through cyberspace. That’s a good thing. I want my voice to be heard. But…anyone might be reading what I’ve written: students I teach at school, those who’ve attended performances I’ve given, friends, the guy who asked me for change at the Farragut North Subway Station, my parents, future employers, people who don’t agree with what I’m saying, the waitress who got my order just right at The Hershey Pantry. The list goes on.
On the other hand, I’ve been terrified that no one would read my blog…that my writing would be “wasted,” (although I realize that would not be so, as writing almost always helps me make sense of what is floating around in my mind and my heart.) Yet there was a very real fear that my voice would go unheard, unnoticed; that would not feel good as I put myself out there, embracing vulnerability.
So…I’ve taken that important step of naming what I’ve been afraid of, and now I intend to release all of that, shake it out, and move forward on this exciting journey. My friend and fellow musician & InterPlayer Stan Stewart advocates the “feel fear and do it anyway” approach, and that’s what I intend to do. Thank you for joining me on my journey. I ask you to please say “hello” and let me know that you’re here. Comments are most welcome!